Hollywood Makeover

Who's never bored with oneself? 
So long time passed since I've had black hair but I still aim for something new. I'm not so keen on testing everything on myself so I got ecstatic when I found 

Hollywood Makeover 

on InStyle website !!!
It allows so perfectly to fit  a hairstyle that it's breathtaking.
Though...I wouldn't rely on blonde there. Unless you're after carrotish yellowish orange shade. Anyway black is black, brown is brown but blonde may be many things.
Not only hairstyle but even make up, eyebrows, lances and so on... particular products available on market. All Dior lipstick shades!!!

Amazing thing! true makeover but not always Hollywood.

Even my man started to appreciate blonde hair that he so hated not longer than a week ago. 
I've always wondered perhaps I'm like hidden Dita and total change can only be better.

well...

No Dita but an old hag would fit me better. Definitively it could improve my drinking image.

And in the morning without a drop of makeup and unbrushed eyebrows I would glow among greyness of British weather.

Maybe a bit lighter but still 'natural coloured' I thought...

It's just like Jessica Biel in Tall Man. 

Some misunderstanding for the movie requirements but never on the street. But fortunately soon in November again brighter in Hitchcock.

With no makeup -sometimes scary- but essential since you'd have to live with it. And dark brown, as many people think after giving themselves rights to advice, 'would look so much better on you!!!' Once I even heard 'your face is like your hair, both yellow. You have to change it to get a contrast.' Putting on the side a question Why do we live in times of peasants who think they can comment negatively and in public looks of others - strangers? 

I checked how lovely I would shine every morning.

So I thought well...maybe red then on my row face which is basically blue and pink - summer type features.

This application is great! totally fulfilled my need for Red Mad Man. Maybe in my second life.

Because my aunt is coming so soon I already stated relaxing process since I know she will again insist on 'short and easy-to-do geometrical hairstyle' and that makes me wonder How come I encourage people to give me advices I don't look for.
In the morning...

with a bit of decency... (personally I don't get it how women can leave home even without a bit of concealer or mascara or regulated eyebrows or unbrushed hair)
unbelievable program!!!

It's the only option I've never even considered that appeared to be flattering especially with a glass of wine. Can you still roll pin curls here ???

But perhaps just as Jessica in Easy Virtue should keep that image ...

I should just stay as always I am.

It is so great to be a woman and so dull to be a man !!! - I would imagine...

What I read about Ava Gardner

As I am reading Ava Gardner's biography I get more and more disappointed. There's been once Miss O. I used to know, lots of fun and only fun. Everything was there! Except flexibility and reliability. 
I think of her when I read about Ava Gardner.
Everyone who knew her say she was the most amazing beauty ever seen and so cute and sweet person and everyone say her dark side dominated.
She did come from very religious family. She was not allowed to date anybody and her mother got aggressive spazm while thinking what could her daughter do with boys. So she grew up thinking that sex is nothing but forbidden and bad. 
It was enough for her to taste it while her first marriage to use it as often as possible and with anyone.
She has led depraved and hedonistic life all along. Never experienced effects of war or anything worse than her parents death.
She did enjoy romances with married men and with children. It never even made her wonder if it's right. Basically every single movie partner became her lover. No matter if she herself has been in relationship or not, even with her everlasting love Frank Sinatra. During Sinatra times she still had many others. When finally she got pregnant with Frank - however some say it had to be a member of African team on Mogambo set - she decided abortion is the way. Who knows how many more she actually had.
Man who became her desire or simply just a need had to be conquered even if he was with his partner or not only but even mother of his kids. Usually she got whom she wanted.
She had led a life of drinking, dancing, spending money and fulfilling her basic needs.
She never diet or exercised and was considered to be lazy. She always drunk spirit, slept the day, had whole night parties. This lifestyle got her to the point when in the age of 40 she was a mess. She became better actress but during Iguana you can see how much older and shapeless she looks - much older than her age.
Her lifestyle pushed away plenty of people from her. Some public places also refused to host her, f.ex. Ritz after she urinated in the main hall near reception. Ava had no shame neither by forcing The Ritz from time to time to let her in and after failure she only could get a drink outside the building.
She loved to gather gypsies and entertain the whole night abusing her friends parties or everyday evening - night bringing in hordes of strangers. Perhaps she had a class... maybe in first years of her career simply because she felt intimidated - small girl from the village without education in the big world.
Her features like honesty, being funny, quick and supposedly bright stayed forever. Just like vulgarity.
She had to be fun but as every stimulant in a bit bigger dose she became a poison.
Everything she did was backed up by her stupidity... not only men she chose but even wild behaviour after getting drunk when she jumped on the bull in Spain and obviously felt crashing her cheek. For months she refused to be seen in public. Finally she had a surgery that left her with minor scar and sick obsession that she's being photographed! An actress! Many times many days photoshot had to be stopped because she suspected someone may take a photo of her. In her late years she became pure diva; special hotel room, facilities, food, alcohol, special costumes, never on time, never prepared and so on...
She became very lonely, desperate woman, ex-sex symbol, suddenly without power over men which was autodestructive since she treated sex as a physiological need.
And all this blew unrestrained animal behaviour -she never had to worry about anything else- had a chance to exist just because someone thought 'she looks beautiful'. Her wooden acting put her at first on a shelf of hollywood for many many long years but provided luxurious lifestyle.
Perhaps litres of Tequila and Gin and shameless life made her a better actress, but definitively she needed 40 years to achieve this and 67 to die exhausted by drinking and smoking.

Some things are better to be kept unsaid so the Myth goes on.

As I look at this photo of her and bags under her eyes I see mine... or you're having fun drinking and partying or you work, it makes you wasted all the same.

Perhaps blonde -and 'angry' uniform- makes this tiredness brighter and smoother. New blonde so hated by my boyfriend that it took out one day from our lifes. But it made me wonder... why no one never told me that I can just tint my hair blonde instead of bleaching it and destroying so much more...