What I've done all this time

It’s been some time since I was loving this place!! 

Not that I wasn’t when I wasn’t. Thank you for all your time and energy spent on reading my posts and checking Facebook page. 

It’s been a long ride till now! Difficulties in becoming a mother made me leave a croupier life. Searching for new solutions I reached for old skills. Piano and yoga. So obvious and yet I had to be pinned down to notice where my change should be. 

And so it began.
It was hard to combine baby-managing with vintage, guess depends on the baby. But adding yoga instructor on top of this baby made it like a bad joke. Things were deeply out of control, same as my pin curls.
Also concluded my face shape was never good for short curly hairstyles in the end.
Let’s face it, how will you do headstands and spend the whole hour with your head down and up and down and up and keep your hairstyle intact. It's like sticking your head out of the car window going with crazy speed. 

You know what I mean if you do yoga sometimes😉

If you’re here you know Ditas Pilates outfit. Obviously. 

..and my absolute favourite..50s skirt over leggings!!

Tried that but then most of my time in black made me believe colours you wear strongly influence your life. It’s just impossible. Felt like psychopath opening the wardrobe with hundreds of identical outfits.

So had a long romance with Kate’s Hudson Fab letics instead.

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Liked it a lot until asked myself How many leggings can you possibly own? 

'Too much is enough’.. unless the website breaks down.

If you’re wondering if it's a scam, no it’s not. But you do agree to pay to your Fab account £44 each month and it will be taken after 5th or so unless! you press skipping button before that time. If you forget, sorry it’s gone waiting on your account to be spent. You can call and argue for your money using all sorts of arguments like hysterical screaming or begging. 

Both work. And you’ll get your money back. If you need additional discount just say you'll close your account. If you need anything just keep saying you'll close your account. You most likely get it😃
But keep in mind, guys working there seem to be only programmed for giving or giving back but not sorting out. That way I still can't access the website and my shopping is over. Color made me feel just simply better. So No Dita style with wavy hair around my head.

It’s been nearly three years, just about time to plan a second baby, when I started to look ..just better.
I seriously reduced amount of make up and at some point along the way my skin started to look better . Loose powder always used to leave dry patches on my nose. 

Cosmetics; same old same old and strongly recommended;

But with CoRoNa V on the loose, the world is so different as never before. No more contact. No more hands on people yoga teachings. Just online zoom communication. 

By the way, www.Zoom.us is doing great these days😉

www.yogaga.org

Even though I started slow Hatha yoga in 1999, I felt in love with dynamic vinyasa. When decided to go full time as a yoga teacher, completed super compressed intense The Power Yoga Company teacher training in London in order to go full steam ahead. Became Yoga Alliance member and went wild starting my own small Hot yoga studio. 

But for now I only hold online classes; it's all about being there when it goes well just to wait to see all going bad and then getting better to good and in the end bad and good and so on.

Once upon a time there was a Chinese farmer whose horse ran away. That evening, all of his neighbors came around to commiserate. They said, “We are so sorry to hear your horse has run away. This is most unfortunate.” The farmer said, “Maybe.” The next day the horse came back bringing seven wild horses with it, and in the evening everybody came back and said, “Oh, isn’t that lucky. What a great turn of events. You now have eight horses!” The farmer again said, “Maybe.” 

The following day his son tried to break one of the horses, and while riding it, he was thrown and broke his leg. The neighbors then said, “Oh dear, that’s too bad,” and the farmer responded, “Maybe.” The next day the conscription officers came around to conscript people into the army, and they rejected his son because he had a broken leg. Again all the neighbors came around and said, “Isn’t that great!” Again, he said, “Maybe.”

The whole process of nature is an integrated process of immense complexity, and it’s really impossible to tell whether anything that happens in it is good or bad — because you never know what will be the consequence of the misfortune; or, you never know what will be the consequences of good fortune.

Alan Watts

Now, since pandemic, left with internet yoga-action I can only 'see people' online. Teaching dynamic Vinyasa (Hot Vinyasa with added 'home made' heat hehe) and Pranayama. If your intrigued visit my retro yoga website www.yogaga.org

or write or call and maybe! we shall see each other some time.

where have all the real men gone?

Since I remember I've always been in a relationship. I like it. Never thought it could make me less independent or limit me in any way. 
Even to explain myself to someone ... still find it amazing having someone who's so interested enough that bothers to ask and demands answers. 

I've always been there, working out problems, believing good things don't come easy, waiting and trying to compromise my needs. Because relationship is a hard hard work, isn't it?

So tried so many times. Always ready for commitment. Hoping for this strong, reliable man who doesn't fear to embrace being with ... someone over emotional and occasionally hysterical, torn by PMS, wanting to be loved and lovable = a woman.

I woke up today and got to this inevitable conclusion they don't exist anymore or never have. Someones wild imagination created this image that was just massively copied in female heads.

1. puff 

You are just supposed to start watching some great film and get cosy on the couch. So you're ready waiting for your man who has to roll a joint, smoke it then drink few beers on top of it and fall asleep in 15 min from press-play-moment. Your best underwear doesn't matter, you may as well wear a sack. In fact don't forget to do that. Save laundry.

Add some puff and deduct 50% of brain. 

Whenever any man appeared to be sexy, witty, intelligent and sharp while being stoned???

Not only it kills even the best perfume, it leaves mental side effects like agitation - and isn't it a real man who's supposed to be patient? - and paranoia - he becomes hysterical when politely asked to stop throwing socks behind the TV while sitting on the couch.

Why would anyone not only stink but even decrease their IQ and libido just for the sake of smoke?

2. gambling

With the other one... you try to watch a film in the evening at home after work, after dinner. Everything's lovely. No one is stoned or drunk. Play and sudden sound of shuffling chips make you realise he just pulled out another laptop and started playing poker online while watching a film in between anger explosions whenever there's a bad hand.

Soon you know there are three of us living together; you, him and poker. It starts to be a habit to sit with both of them while eating dinner, talking, drinking coffee in bed in the morning... you wonder how does he manage having shower without it..?

3. Last minute proposal

I knew I seen his face in my dreams many times before... 

that was something! After first dates he switched like schizophrenics who run out of meds. And stayed like this for next two years. Being there but making sure I know he doesn't care. Even after moving in together, visiting parents every week, holiday trips, plans with his family.. still mentioned periodically 'you're my lover not my girlfriend'.
This magic moment last 2 years. Then you're free to decide. To see things the way they are. Chemistry evaporates and when you felt tormented just move on. 
Two days after moving out, just like schizo back on meds again, he appeared outside my dentists, waited for me and proposed...

Always thought engagement ring says; we are so happy together. I love you, can't live without you! Please just stay and die with, before or after me! Or else I will never love again because I always knew You are the One.
but what it really is; Seriously? You're leaving? I'm so scared to be alone so if you weren't bluffing here you are, I beg you stay!

4. erotomaniac

How much sex can you have in one day? if good as much as possible! But how much can he has??? Ladies follow your intuition and when you feel it just check browsing history to find out his hobby; porn chat every morning, every evening, every day, every week, every month. Only the fact he has to be at work protects him from himself. 

Is live video sex and phone sex with others betrayal?
"What you doing baby? Wanking with this tanned lady there on the screen? Ok, so hurry, wash your hands, dinner on the table in five min!"

5. modern headaches and backaches

Three times so far I heard from a man 'I've never been into sex before'.
Let's make it clear. It doesn't mean: Wow! he never enjoyed with anyone. Now he does because he thinks I'm special.
What it really is: I'm surprised I have so much sex at the moment. It's unnatural, not sure if I like it. Let's go back to my other hobbies: puffing, gambling, drinking...

No solution here. Even morning sex is overrated; backaches, stomach pains, tiredness, hangovers, bad mood run in male family.
...unless you go for nr 4.
Choosing the worse evil is the key to happy relationships. 

6. happily ever after...

So you think everything's going to be fine as long as you're honest and clear about what you want in life and if he says 'me too' - and they always do - just to buy some time, you just got yourself unavoidable happy ending. 
Perhaps it's naive but definitively simple:

relationship becomes

or next relationship 

or a family beginning 

both broken, loving or soon to be broken or as many wish forever existing but it's as rare as two together wanting same things in the same time.

If you want to have a family even just to.. not to be found dead after a year time, half eaten by your cat or to have someone to spend Christmas with...
regardless all your reasons, perhaps getting together with a female friend and choosing adoption is a better shot ;)
Time is passing and wrong decisions are costly. 

My favourites are: 

no money (most useful catchphrase)

have to quit puff first

too soon (he's only 38)

ok, I do it but no marriage (isn't then sperm bank more efficient?)

You may think that mentally I'm only ten and that's fine.
If so, is that true;
if you can't get what you like, you like what you get. ?

Dita legend frames

Can't look at yourself? Need a change?

I mean something more than just spending £200 on bras and knickers on sale...

There are only few things you can do; change your hair colour, do Botox or buy new frames. 

Lady in fancy optician salon tried to accuse me of wearing blank lenses but quickly I won this battle. -0,5 and -0,75 with -1 astigmatism in one eye. Yes!!!!!!

I thought stick to what you know..Dior cd 3207

So decided at first to get what I already have just in different color. Old reliable frame that's getting cheaper and cheaper facing end of production line.

Or dolce gabbana dg 3071 that I used as my sunglasses. 
Maybe white? Pink? Just to make me look even more suspicious..

And then suddenly after few weeks Rhonda Byrne with her "secret" brought me Dita von teese frames!!! Immediately in some sick state of extase started to research the net, photos and calling around all shops in London. 

I run around london like crazy shooting selfies since that's the only way how you can find out about yourself and frames.

Definitively recommend large wine before so others get drained to your good aura and propose to shot photos of you. Everyone.. Staff, people shopping...

And http://adamsimmonds.co.uk/

 selling theo.be

One lady run out after me just to tell me "even if it cost fortune take it!!!"

So decided Dita Velour. Have no idea why everywhere they tried to sell it for 430-460 + lenses and first shop I went to offered me £340 and lenses for free in special offer.

http://www.safarianandsimon.co.uk/

£ 340 + free lenses with antiscratch and uvblock

additional £45 and will get you self cleaning... (what?)

They did try to convince me I need self cleaning ones for £45 already half priced but No.

Which color?? A little bit here, a little bit there and you know it.

Someone in the eye company informed me that dior and all those fancy brands are simply a shit. Produced in China from cheap materials with printed sign made in Italy where someone probably only put a tiny screw after frames arrive from Asia just to say we made it here. It gets easily damaged, distorted, and goes out of production quickly. It's a shit.

I said but I have dior...

Yes, I know- said gently...

Offered me to make Dita velour in nocolor means pure crystal for only £300.

Or any other shape or colour since they produce own frames. Not bad!! Something to think of if you want to go crazy or recreate vintage.

Capri Pedal Pushers

Hard to distinguish one from the other.

What according to Vivien of Holloway is pedal pushers is Capri according to Wikipedia and the other way around.

Most likely VOH is simply wrong.

Anyway...

I did buy grey VOH pedalpushers in my apparently rare size since it took me a year or so to get it in quite neutral color. 

The problem is; it's cotton which is good and bad because very quickly it gets creased.
Waist is tight but leg trousers are too wide for my taste.

(red patent leather calvin klein flats, trashy diva ginger jacket, red VOH wide belt, pink cotton gingham shirt, bobbie jerome velvet clutch bag)

The only trousers I'd like to try are cigarette pants from Freddies of pine wood

1950s Rembrandt and tailoring

It's been a long time....
been here and there, mostly at some point of my life and few places as well
But I'm back now

         

Still spending money like crazy on vintage slips, petticoats, bags and dresses and my new hobby:

paying for tailoring my clothes !!!

Must say took me a while to give it a try.

So basically if you simply don't want to buy a new one, give your old one to a tailor.

Brilliant.

My dressmaker is terribly expensive but it's only because I'm lazy and have her in my working place.

So nice to be able to afford it... being lazy I mean.

bought on eBay £18

Yes!!! for free!!!

genuine 1950s Rembrandt - one of my favorite 

...and there was a problem. Can you see those weird triangles, kind of hip extensions?

Perhaps back then when this crispy taffeta - the dress doesn't stretch a bit - was still crispy it made sense but when I put it on looked like drunk and creased 80's mad lady.

So my unappreciated me as a regular customer expensive dressmaker estimated:

• decolletage seams reinforcement
• removing those hips and creating nice line
• back widening using fabric taken from hip area
• sleeves shortening to avoid fabric sticking to elbow area and tearing the back
• adjusting in waist
• changing the zip

TOTAL: £45

 (stockings black point heel GIO... im wearing 9,5...shoes Miss L Fire Cinderella black)

So before wearing it for the first time the dress unexpectedly disappeared in the flat during floor changing.

When she - dressmoneydrainingmaker - asked me have I worn it yet... and I said

-No, I lost it but hopefully in my flat. Can't find it for two months now. So angry about it.

-You're angry !!!!!! What do you want me to say!!! So much work!!! - and money I paid you, I thought, so as far I'm concerned I could even burn it without remorse for this price- You have to find it!!! Keep looking!!!!!!

She made me feel guilty so I found it among old paints and brushes in my 'shed'.